LE SIGH!!! This year went by way to fcking quick–just like my life seem to be lately! Full of ups and downs, uncertainties, and all kinds of questions. I’m sure I’m not the only one feeling like this so I figured I’d write a bit about it. I’m sitting here with a splitting headache and wanting to just stay home tonight instead of going to my brother’s to celebrate with the H and the rest of my family—going under protest.
As I sit here on this last day of 2016 I can’t help but to think about what I’ve been through this year, learned about myself, learned about others, accomplishments, wants, and NEEDS! I also can’t help to think about CB and be thankful! You might wonder why I’m thankful for him if what we have is just an amazing friendship, a crazy spot on bond, a kick ass connection, and have to deal with keeping all of it a secret. Well–you just read why I am thankful for him!
In the last year and half, CB has made me feel a whole lot of emotions that I didn’t know existed or that I could feel. He has made me feel loved, desired, valued, and worth a lot more than I every thought I was. I can wholeheartedly say he has helped me and made me look at life with gratitude and a smile on my face 24/7 (or at least 16/7–a girl’s gotta sleep).
I was lucky enough to catch up with CB for a bit this morning and get those kisses that turn me (turn both of us) into a puddle–now I can say my 2016 will end somewhat ok. Obviously my idealistic self would love to be able to end 2016 and begin 2017 with CB but for now I’ll settle.
Things I will try to do in 2017:
- Let go of my ego and stop allowing it to get in the way of having the things I truly want
- Learn how to do something new
- Take day trips (even if it’s just me -alone)
- Eliminate one form of negativity
- Practice gratitude all the time
- Stop trying to please everyone
- Go on an adventure
- Travel
- Practice random acts of kindness
- Communicate more with family and friends
- Do things I enjoy with people I whose company I enjoy
- Meditate
- Journal or keep writing here
Hope you have a great end of 2016!!